The first day

December 13, 2011,

Today has been monumental, and it's only 12:48pm.

God is so good, why do I ever doubt?

I woke up this morning (after going to bed at 4 am catching up with my "brothers" from church whom I hadn't seen in FOREVER, whoops) to go to my first day of personal training!
Now, most people would dread this fact, dread the thought of working out, sweating, lunges, burning legs and arms, but I'm a rare breed when it comes to working out.  I enjoy it, because I know it's doing something positive for my body.  But as someone who works out 6/7 days a week (usually, I'm not perfect by ANY means) I felt as though I was out of options and stuck in a rut of monotony of switching between running outside, playing basketball, etc.

So.  10 o'clock came and I got to work.  By 11 my thighs and arms were burning, I was sweaty, and I was satisfied with the workout.  I was also happy to hear that I didn't have to work out for 2 hours to burn the necessary calories to help reach my weight goal.  As a music major, this is absolutely MUSIC TO MY EARS, (Legitimately no pun intended there) because I literally have no time as it is, even though I make time to workout.  I'm very excited to be working with my trainer, Kyler, 3 times a week over this winter break. I'll keep ya posted.

So, contrariwise then I came home and the stupid devil tried to get into my thoughts, telling me I was ugly, fat, unloved, etc... the usual of what he does to girls.  So after coming to my mother tearing up and feeling sorry for myself over that, along with a number on the scale that I will not post on the internet, we began to sort out my feelings, and she began to be the best mom ever, like usual.
*thatwasthelongestrunonsentenceeversorry*

It literally ended up being one of the most amazing hours of my life.  My mom really opened up about some struggles with self-image issues she went through in college and how I truly am not alone, she promises.  God really opened up my heart to be receptive and not reject her love and advice like I had done in years past (because I was so unhappy with myself) and it was a really healing moment.

Side note- *My mom and I have a very healthy, loving relationship, I just get ornery sometimes and don't like to hear advice I just want to wallow and be negative.*

Anyways.  We talked for a whole hour, and after both crying I felt so much better, and am absolutely looking up toward these next 4 weeks of eating extremely healthily, cutting out all sugar and dairy, and trusting God for results.

In Jesus Name,
Amen.

Megan :)

It's been a while...

December 7, 2011

Hey readers. So sorry this last month has been absolutely ridiculously busy, and honestly, I've just forgotten to post.  Where do I begin.

Let's start with Thanksgiving... I had an amazing time at home with my family! :) I love them so much and I can't believe it was 2 weeks ago already.  Things here in Nashville move so quickly! It was so wonderful to be home and have some great home cooking, sleep in my own bed, spend time writing and recording. God is so good!

I've been playing basketball 3 times a week with all the boys here at Belmont.  They call it "noonball".  I've kind of had to prove myself as a player, but it's been a great challenge.  Having never really played 1) with a guys sized ball (29.5 as opposed to a Womens 28.5) my shot has to get used to it every time, but I score at least a couple times and just try and rock people with picks and such.  And it's a good thing I can run.

God has also blessed me with some new friends in my life.  I won't name specific names on here, but He's good literally ALL the time.  I'm really putting my faith out there and learning to get my feet deeper and deeper into the water of trusting Him with everything, giving my innermost struggles to Him and laying them down at the foot of the cross. Nothing is impossible, and Nothing can't be accomplished through Jesus.  Easier said than done, yes, but every day is a step.

Also, Christmas at Belmont was this week and it was AMAAAAAAZING. WOW.  400 some singers and like 20 different groups singing with a full orchestra, even dancers! Belmont is amazing, and sorry, there's no school like us.  There's a reason it's on national television. Airing on PBS Christmas Eve at 7pm Central Time. WATCH IT ITS SO WORTH IT. I literally cried during a couple groups, and I know others did too, even though I'd heard those groups before and knew the people.  

Oh, and nbd but... LAURA BELL BUNDY was our host.  We got to meet her, she performed. She's fabulous. OH, and she has a Chihuahua dog that I'm 99.9% sure was the dog they used when she was Elle in Legally Blonde. For those of you who are like who the heck is she? She was the FIRST Elle on Broadway of Legally Blonde the musical. SHE CAN SANG.

Lastly, it's finals week and today is "dead day", though campus couldn't feel more alive. We had a pancake night put on by university ministries and it seemed like all of campus showed up! It was awesome!!! :) 

p.s. God has given me the first 5 songs of my album. I couldn't be more excited!!!!!

p.s.s. God is really teaching me not to worry about "the right boy", and to just focus on becoming the best me I can be first, and then just trusting that "he" will come when the time is right. Thank the Lord I have well.. the Lord on my side who is working all that out so I don't have to. 

Love,

Megan :)